The holy grail of hot drinks! 

I don’t know about you but I always love a good hot drink during the winter. I’m English and everyone would assume that would be a big cup of tea. However at the best of times I don’t even like tea, I’ll drink it occasionally or at work but other than that never. 

My number one drink, the holy grail of hot drinks, in my opinion, is a HOT BLACKCURRANT!  

I remember having this drink when I was a little girl either when I was ill or when I needed some comfort. I’d be wrapped up in my duvet looking like a caterpillar with my big santa mug (despite it not being christmas – everyone loves being festive) watching a feel good movie on the sofa. 

Since having my own house I’ve had the need/ craving to have this on a nightly basis. I don’t know why but it makes me feel so warm and cosy inside, granted I also have a couple of bourbons to accompany, to help feed the chocoholic nature in me as well. 

What’s your favourite feel good hot drink? 

Yours truly

Sophie x

The fine art of being a adult. 

I’ve learnt a lot about the joys of being an adult since I moved into my own house. 

Household chores are a big thing. 

I’ve had to make sure the clothes are washed and ready for work. Prepping dinner and making sure it’s cooked for around 6ish. Cleaning up afterwards and obsessing over little bits of dirt on my brand new yet utterly wrong choice but looks really lovely in my dining room…dining room table. Phew mouth full. 

The lack of getting ‘you’ time is also becoming a massive thing. Before when I lived with my parents, I’d get home, get changed, watch Tv, eat dinner, watch more Tv and then go to bed. Nowadays I get home, run round like a headless chicken and finally settle down around 9 at night and by then I’m too tired to do anything and just want my comfy bed! Only now I have to share it and I have less than half the room to spread like a starfish! 😩

I also find myself obsessing over everything in a decorative sense. ‘Does this candle look nice here. Does that clock go. Hmmm something’s missing here. Oh a nice lamp would look lovely here.’

I just can’t seem to stop thinking of little jobs I can do to make my house look just how I want it. The more I think about it as well, the more I come to realise that my house will never ever stop being tampered with! Which is slightly annoying, very time consuming and will probably put a very large hole in my pocket. Or Danny’s tehehe. 

Although I am a mere age of 21 I have come to respect my parents more and more as I’ve realised just how stressfull, time consuming and utterly non self centred adult life is. It’s always about others and never about yourself. So, Mum and Pops, I salute you! Well done….. for bringing up such an awesome child! Haha

Yours truly 

Sophie x

Panic Attacks

If a person you love/ care about or a friend suffers from panic attacks, there’s a lot you can do to try and help them. 

Nine times out of ten nobody knows what to do and nearly all the time everyone just stares at you and thinks your looking for attention or your just a cry baby. So In this article I’ll be giving some top tips on how to help people whilst there having a panic attack.

I know I’ve written one before but it’s always good to have a little refresh! 

The ‘Do’ list: 

 – Do remind the person having a panic attack that they are in no way obligated to stay where they are. They can leave if they are panicking, don’t pressure them to stay where they are. 

Do assure them there is nothing to be afraid of. Someone experiencing a panic attack will probably find it a lot harder to rationalize the fact that there’s no real reason to be panicking, that’s the sad truth. Remind them they are completely safe and that you are there to help them through this.

Do let them know that it’s only temporary. Panic attacks don’t and will never last forever. Despite the terrible mental state the sufferer is in. 

Do encourage them to breathe. Breathing is particularly difficult during a panic attack and someone experiencing it could forget to breathe properly. Tell them to take a deep breath in for four seconds, then let it out for four seconds and repeat. Breathing helps, but it only helps when done correctly. Another way that I found was to make sure my feet are flat on the ground to ‘ground’ myself with the floor. It helps keep me grounded and to re focus on everything. 

Do attempt to have an engaging conversation with them. Chances are if you’re a friend, you know what piques the person’s interest. Try to casually bring the topic up. Don’t bombard the person in a panic attack with a lengthy conversation as this could be overwhelming. 

Do stay with them!! If the person panicking wants you to leave, it’s most likely the anxiety talking. More often than not, a panic attack only gets worse if the person is left alone to suffer through their own thoughts. Stay by their side no matter what.

The ‘Don’t’ list:

Don’t let denial fool you. No matter how comfortable I am around a person, if they ask if everything’s okay when they accurately sense something is not, I assure them everything is fine. Don’t let this fool you.

Don’t tell them to calm down or relax. This is a huge no no, it never helps normally during conversation so it’s best not to say it whilst someone is suffering from a panic attack. 

Don’t ask why they’re panicking. The sufferer probably knows just as much as you do in that moment.

Don’t brush it off. You might be in the company of someone who is pro at panic attacks. Don’t brush off or ignore any panic attack, no matter what the circumstances are. 

Don’t bullshit. “Look over there at that bird!” “Stare at me for 10 seconds.” “Close your eyes and picture a nice glowing star.” No, no, and no. Don’t bullshit someone while they’re in a panic attack. None of that works and you know it.

Don’t seem irritated or judgmental. This sounds obvious, but it’s important. One of my biggest fears is that when I’m having a panic attack, I’m annoying people or ive ruined a good evening/ event due to how I am. Even if you are somewhat annoyed, maintain composure and keep in mind that you are nowhere near as annoyed as the person actually experiencing the panic attack. 

The main thing to remember is be there for them. Don’t be a d**k or over sensitive. Be yourself, talk them through it and help them. Anxiety and panic attacks don’t disappear over night or ever at all. So help not hinder. 

Yours truly 

Sophie x

A year on…

A lot has happened in this last year since I was last active on here. 

You know that annoying thing that pops up in your Facebook notification box every day and shows you how your English lessons at skule were nt helping u att all and how cool you really used to be when mate was actually m8. I don’t know about you but mine just reminds me how bored I was so I just had jump on the ‘like for a rate’ band wagon. 

Well either way it helped remind me of something I used to love doing. So… here I am, about to spout out what goals I’ve accomplished in the last year of my life to, well, probably no one. BUT who really cares, as long as I’m happy and doing something to fill my spare time with, life is good! 

Anyway, to cut to the point of this blog post here’s a list of what’s happened; 

– I’m now officially employed! Yay!! (insert a round of applause) 

– I turned 21. Boo!! 

– I now live with my amazing boyfriend in our very own home.

– My car survived a whole year without breaking down.

And the last thing is; 

I HAVE A MORTGAGE! I know I’m such an adult! 

All this in one year… WOW

I feel over the moon with what I’ve achieved. I’ve proved lots of people wrong, including myself and let’s say I am loving life. 

All I needed was a little bit of determination! So cond on people get up, get out there, and achieve your goals! I believe in you!

Yours truly

Sophie x

Winter Colds

I ladies and gentleman have been blessed with what we call a common winter cold. At least I think it’s a cold. Im drafting this blog post at 2am, so please folks bare in mind that it may or may not be entertaining or even make sense as I was delirious on paracetamols, soothers and also the fact that I genuinely cannot breathe and lack of oxygen can do that to a person. 

Colds are horrible things that come in all shapes and sizes. Being me and really unlucky when it comes to illness’ because of my really crappy immune system, I get lumped with the most aggressive one. Great! I can’t breathe, my throat is sore and tight but also incurably dry no matter how much water I drink. My nose is like a tap (not pleasant I know, I did warn you that this may not be entertaining) and my head is ringing constantly and feels like there fluid running through it, which does worry me, as im pretty sure I don’t want my brain to turn to mush! 

I don’t even know why I’m telling you all this as why would anyone want to know about my symptoms and how disgusting I am right now. Even my boyfriend is avoiding me just in case he gets what I’ve got. The saying ‘avoiding someone like the plague’ comes to mind. 

I am sorry, fellow followers if this post is not a nice one but this blog is a good place to share my feelings. And guys, I feel like utter CRAP! In fact I don’t even know why I’m drafting this post at 2am. Well there could be two reasons; it’s probably because I feel bad that I’ve not posted in a while or that I’m looking for some sympathy which I have not been given yet, especially from my family. (my dad made me fill a skip full of bricks and rubble today) 

It’s now 2.30am and I should probably think about getting some sleep, so I bid you a goodnight, good morning/afternoon and evening depending on what time it is and I ask you for a little sympathy whilst I feel sorry for myself. 

Yours truly

Poorly Sophie X 

P.s it’s now morning and I still feel the same. Someone pray that I get better soon! 

Shaun the Sheep movie review

Director: Mark Burton & Richard Starzak

Running time: 85 minutes 

Score: 8/10

I have never ever watched Shaun the sheep, which personally I think is diabolical seen as I grew up watching CBBC and CBeebies. So when it came to the choice on what to watch on a Friday night in with the boyfriend that was an obvious choice. A choice well made in my opinion. I also now want to adopt a baby sheep! So cute!! 

I spent the full 85 minutes having a giggle and every now and an occasional great big belly laugh! I have to say it’s a great film for an adult like me to enjoy as well as a child (which is the intended audience) 

It received a 7.4 rating on IMDB and 99% on rotten tomatoes and In my opinion it falls in between. I really did love this film and it allowed me to let out a little bit of my inner child. 

I love how this film has no dialogue in it, yet you can still understand the point of the film. I also love how dark kids films are, there was so many jokes in this film that the intended audience would not understand yet a person of my age would. There’s even a silence of the lambs reference!

All in all I loved this film and had a great time cuddling with my other half whilst watching it 🙂 

I give it an 8/10 

Yours truly

Sophie x 

When you realise your too old… 

So last night I went out in town with my boyfriend and a couple of friends to say goodbye to one of the friends who just happened to be moving. (how many times can you say friend in one sentence! ) and as you do, you have pre drinks before you go out and then start in town. Naturally. 

Now I don’t go out that often, maybe once a month or a special occasion, but it used to be every Saturday night. I got all glammed up and trudged out whatever the weather to blow what little money I had on empty calories, sweaty atmosphere and shitty music. 

We had a couple of drinks is spoons and then made our way to the next pub. I think I had 1 drink in there and then just gave up. It just didn’t appeal to me anymore! I had a good boogie with the girls and then I began to get really tired and fed up (this was around 11 ish) I started thinking maybe I’m just not cut out for this anymore. 

By 12 we were in a taxi heading home and we were all saying ‘I can’t wait to get in bed’.  Everybody please bare in mind that I am 19 years old. I was the youngest out and I was also saying that! Ha! It makes me laugh. 

I think when you first turn 18 it’s amazing and you want to spend every minute drinking and having fun but it wares off after and while and you just don’t feel it anymore. It’s either that or I’ve grown up! (Eww adults! ) 

Anyway so I’ve come to realise that I’m too old for a night out! Which is strange because I’m still so young! But I will still go out on occasion because otherwise I’ll be branded a boring sod! 

Has anyone else started to feel this way even though your still young!? I hope I’m not the only one! 

Yours truly

Sophie x 

Pixels movie review! 

Title: Pixels
Running time: 106 minutes

Director: Chris Columbus

Score: 7.5/10 

Okay, I’m gonna start with the only reason why I went to see the film and that was to see Ashley Benson (Pretty Little Liar actress – my new favourite TV programme) yet I felt her part didn’t give me the PLL satisfaction. But she did look pretty badass with two samurai swords (tbh she could’ve used them to off A!) 

I had not seen many adverts for this film or even a trailer, just bits of it, so I only really knew that there was a big PacMan and Ashley Benson. So I didn’t really have an opinion going in, and I came out having had an amazing experience. The film was HILARIOUS! Adam Sandler did an amazing job and I feel like this is the best Happy Madison film I’ve seen (although my favourite film with Sandler is Hotel Transylvania!!!) 

The film in a whole is about old arcade games being brought to life by an Alien population and sent to destroy Earth one match at a time! It’s a bit of a weird context for a film but Hey Ho! It worked (can’t really imagine someone pitching it and not sounding crazy!) 

Even though the arcade games that were featured are old ones I still recognised most of them, which was great cause I also understood most of the jokes that were put forward. What was even better was that my sister understood them as well! We spent the every minute laughing, it was great! 

The cast was actually decent and well known and actually had some chemistry! Which was refreshing seen as the last film I saw was Fantastic Four and we all know what score that got on Rotten Tomatoes! 

When Peter Dinklage made his appearance there was two things that could think of. TYRION LANNISTER!! And that he’s actually not that small, either that or Josh Gad is TINY! I love Dinklage’s character, it shows how diverse he is as an actor, the only thing that really grated on me was his stupid accent! It felt like an old man trying to do an American accent but at the same time trying to be down with the kids. It was weird and horrible! (It felt as awkward as when my dad tries to add a foreign accent onto his English) 

One actor I didn’t think would be In a film like this is Sean Bean, and to my surprise he did not die! He normally dies in everything! Which again was nice a refreshing. 

What did annoy me about this film was the stereotype of England that America has. Apparently we all speak really posh English and speak gobildy gook a lot. But guys! We don’t! We are normal people! 

Other than that, it’s a very funny film which all ages could watch and enjoy! In my opinion it deserves more than a 5.5 rating on IMDB because it had everything! Romance, humour, grippy story line, amazing characters, character development and even heart ranching moments! 
Do go see this film guys, it’s a great one to watch! 

Yours truly 

Sophie x

School’s over. What next!

Results day as been and gone and I’m betting there’s millions of people who are in the same position as me! 

What is there to do after education ends!

You go through years upon years of education to get to this one crossroad in your life which also sets you up for the rest of your life. Unfortunately for some people (including me) education is wasted. I have found that I don’t want to follow the system that secondary education sets you up for, which means no university for me! 

Now, there are many pro’s and con’s to this. 

Pro’s being:

– not going to uni allows you to have a break from education 

– free from student loan debt which you have to pay back for the rest of your life 

– getting a job and actually going somewhere with your life

– not wasting another 3 – 4 years of your life to get a degree and then come out and work in subway! 

Con’s being:

– it’s really hard to get a full time job when you havnt got a job

– you have no work experience

– getting a degree sets you aside to other people 

– them 2 years you’ve just spent doing A levels now mean nothing and therefore was a complete waste of your life! 

Rant alert! 

What really annoys me about the whole education system is that they spend 7 years of your life, setting you up for University when school’s should recognise that not all students want to go to uni! 

What about the small minute amount of people that don’t want to go! Schools don’t do anything for them people ( me being one of them) we are rejected and forgotten and put aside whilst everyone else is doing UCAS forms. They don’t do anything for us, no CV writing, no help with job prospects or even what job opportunities are out there! 

So now I’m stuck in this dead end cycle of job hunting with a poorly set out CV that includes:

– couple of part time jobs 

– A week of work experience I attaind in year 11 

– And multiple awards with musical instruments! 

I have been searching and searching for a job and nothing’s come up. It just would’ve been nice to have a little help along the way!! 

Rant over! 

Phew! Haha anyway I’m hoping the future holds a nice job (not in subway) with a decent income where I can buy my dream home 🙂 

For those who are going to University I hope your results were awesome and you’ve got into your first choice! 

Yours truly 

Sophie x 

I’m back! 

When I first started this blog it was to help me get stuff out of my head and onto paper, so to speak, apart from I decided to splash it all over the Internet!

Since then I have come on leaps and bounds with my anxiety and at this moment in time I’m feeling great!

I feel great about my life and where my head is at. I can’t remember the last time I had a full blown panic attack and to me that is a very positive thing. I have wobbles every know and then where I begin to doubt things. But now I tend to think positivly and the anxious feelings go away! Where before I would just let these feelings eat away and I would over think things!

I am finally living in one place which helps tremendously and I have finished school permanently and looking for a full time job. Life is great and I’m looking towards the future.

I know I havnt made many blog posts recently, if at all any, but I’m back from my break and I’m going to start writing some lovely blog post for you all to fill my empty days! (Having no job sucks!) 

Anyway hope you are having a lovely summer!

Yours truly 

Sophie x